|Cincy March 2011|
|Cheesecake Factory May 18, 2011|
|baby shower May 29, 2011|
|June 25, 2011 or thereabouts.|
|May 18, 2011. Just waiting for JOY to show up.|
sweet Jack Oliver Young is in every one of these pictures.
I miss him. I never even got to see his peepers opened. Or see how he'd move his mouth, gnaw on his sweet hands.
I can't even imagine what life would be like if he were here.
I feel like I'm still expecting.
I never got the prize at the end. I mean, I did, but it was so totally NOT what I had envisioned it to be.
I need to add to my list of things to blog about:
I got my beautiful "In Our Hearts" photo pendant in the mail today (Thank you, Celia. It is BEAUTIFUL). Very fitting for this 38th Thursday.
I put it on, instantly.
I wore it into Target.
The cashier, Becky, asked me about it.
I told her who it was. She remembered me from Christmas time. Asked if I was the girl with "all the kids".
The lady in line behind me told me that there would be a special reward for moms like me in eternity.
I told her that I hoped it would be that baby boy on my hip forever. Praising the Lord, Creator of Life and this Universe. She smiled. it was like she knew something that I didn't, or that she was sent by Someone.
Hopefully life will slow down long enough for me to get my blog caught up this weekend.
It needs to. I can feel myself crashing and burning.
Just so ya know, kids, I love you. Each and every one of you.
Just so ya know, David, I love you.
Just so ya know, person that I talk to or don't talk to but know one way or another, I love you.
So many hurts. So many rejoices. so much sorrow, yet so much JOY. Find JOY. that's a challenge.