Thursday, July 14, 2011

This will be a tear jerking post...

no words...


shock. dreamlike trance...this really did not just happen. why? what? who?.....



little peanut head



Levi's face says it all...




My sister has had almost as hard of a time as I have with this...I mean, the girl did suffer pregnancy symptoms right along with me...and what an aunt she is. Jack, you would have loved your crazy Aunt Becky...I mean it.



This is Tambo...she was also so ready for this little fella to get here...this picture breaks my heart. to pieces.



Levi was just not sure what to think. Molly was checking him out, holding him, messing with his hair. It was so sweet. Grandma was also ready for a newbie to welcome under her wings...



sweet little look a likes.



I feel so bad for Mel...she was so ready to be this little guy's big sister.


such great big brothers you have Jack! Levi didn't want to hold him but he didn't want to be too far away from him either...



and another great big bro...



I'm pretty sure that I was hovering above the room at this moment...still, 2 weeks later, it just doesn't seem possible that this actually took place.



our friends, and family laid hands on us and prayed for us...another surreal moment and so appreciative of the loving support from all of these people and others. I just don't think we could've made it this far without them.


I am truly honored to have carried Jack for nearly 41 weeks. What a sweet little guy. I wanted to share some more of June 30, 2011...a day that I will never ever forget. My family will never be the same. We have an empty space. We all pine for that precious little newborn to be here with us. But we will rest in the knowledge that he is being held by Jesus Christ.

19 comments:

HarClark1314 said...

Wow, Laurie. This is so touching to see all the emotion, love, & support in these pictures. I have insane chills. Im so sorry for your loss. Lucky Little Jack is living a much better life than us all here though. Be strong.

Tashena said...

Thank you for letting us share in your life during this time. I know things are difficult, yet you let us tag along by means through your awesome blog. I hope we can all be a blessing to you all as you have been for us. Sweet Dreams tonight.
With Love,
Your Neighbor

Great Mercy - Much Grace

Dawn Robinson said...

Laurie...I am in awe of your post and your strength. As I sit here I cry for your hurt and wish I could make things feel better for you. Jesus wanted your womb to be Jack's only home on earth. I don't understand why this happened. I don't know if I ever will. However, he is a gorgous baby...of course and you are a beautiful example of a christian wife and mother...I want to snap my fingers and bring him back and it makes my heart ache that I can't. I love all of you guys...

Twila said...

You have been through so much. I am crying for you. I hope sharing with all of us will in some way play a part in healing your heart. Thinking of you always.

Anonymous said...

I came across your blog because I am facebook friends with Marla Calvert. I read your story and cried for you. You see, the 12th is a "special date" for me too. My daughter had a full term baby go to be with Jesus on June 12, 2009. We just "celebrated" his two year birthday into Heaven. We totally "get it". I so hope you will join a support group. We have been extremely blessed by having been with others in the same "club". It is so incredibly sad...however, Heaven is forever and ever and ever and we will be with our precious babies f-o-r-e-v-e-r. Praise God! Feel free to e-mail me at marla.mcfarland@comcast.net.
HUGS to your whole family-and from one grandma to your Jack's grandmas...(((HUG))). _Marla McFarland
see...storyofsullivan.blogspot.com

Laurie and company said...

thanks everybody....and I love y'all right back. HarClark, I'm not sure if I know who you are...you are definitely welcome to be here :) glad you are! forgive me if I do know you and I'm just not recognizing your profile name... <3
Dawn, can't wait to see ya... :) your writing is simply beautiful...we love you too. so much. can't wait to hug you, dawnie.

Tashena, I am sooo blessed to have you as my neighbor and friend. I just can't even comprehend how God was taking such good care of me to put you next door. Man. it's just something, isn't it?

Laurie and company said...

Twila, I think it is definitely part of my healing process to share with everyone. Plus, I want everyone to see what a little treasure Jack Oliver Young truly was. I knew him intimately...I miss my nap buddy. and his face was almost exactly as I imagined it would be. that is what hurts so badly...thank you so much, dear friend, for continuing to check on us, for thinking of us, for the beautiful planter and for crying with us! Love you <3

Marla, it is so nice to meet you and thank you for sharing your story...I will definitely be checking out the blogspot you posted. Thank you for your encouraging words and hope. I've written your email addy down and link to your blog...so thankful that God puts people in touch who have been thru the same kinds of loss. I will be in touch. God bless you!

Carmen Mackenzie said...

Dear Laurie, I have only met u once in my life.Yet I feel like u are part my family. I share your sorrow and am made stronger by your faith.I feel a love for u I can not explain other then our Lord. Love your pictures. I can't wait to come back out to get to know your family better. Love and blessing to you and your family
Carmen Mackenzie

Laurie and company said...

Awww, Aunt Carmen...after meeting you at Jordan's open house, I definitely felt I had met a kindred spirit..and a Calvary Chapel one at that! You are one heckuva lady and I was so excited to meet you. I will look forward to getting to know you better one of these days. You are my sister in Christ and that right there is a bond most worthy.
Love to you. thank you for your prayers and love,
L

Kim said...

I couldn't even make it through these pictures without tearing up. His little head of dark hair reminds me of my Jack and I just can't even rest my mind on what you're going through. Your and your family's strength in Christ is what shines through, though. One nanosecond at time...
Kim

Jodi said...

Oh, the faces.
Each and every one of them.
That little Jack--what a baby doll he is. His little open mouth...just like he is sleeping.
There will come a day when you will hold, cuddle, kiss, and love on him again. You know that.
I grieve with you, dear Laurie.
My words are so inadequate, but know that I cry with you.
I love you.

Anonymous said...

crying and praying with you and your family<3 we love you.

Beckisue said...

Thank you for sharing Laurie. I can't imagine the pain you and your family are going through. Rest assured that you are in my prayers. Lord willing I will see you tomorrow!

I love you!

{Happy Homes} said...

Laurie,
you are right. no words. no words. no words.

My prayer for you and each one of your precious family members it that this horrible tragedy will drive you closer to the center of GOD. Only there will peace come, only there will healing come, only there will thanksgiving and JOY come. I've not experienced this specific tragedy, but I have experienced a different yet same sudden and unexpected tragedy. It does leave you numb, speechless, wanting to go back, just rewind the time, PLEASE.

But on the other side, be assured, is a part of you that you never knew existed, nor would it exist if not for this experience. It's more empathetic. It's more appreciative of the little things. The HERE and NOW. Not waiting for tomorrow, but living the today. It's hugging your husband, and the children we do have, a little longer, a little harder, knowing all to well that we do not control one instant. Loving every moment you have with relatives and friends. The special blue sky that God painted just for you at that moment.

I pray that each one of the children, you and Dave will embrace the pain, do not deny it...ever. Talk about it when you need to, stop when you need to. Enjoy the present. It's a gift. My heart aches for you and my love for you and your family grows...love,
tonya

ps...for no words...a lot typed out!

Anonymous said...

Hi my name is Brittney melton. I know we have never met but iv known laura cromer lee for a long time. I lost my son at 39wks and 1day. I went in to deliver and everything was fine through delivery, when they cut the cord they lost him. They did cpr for 33min so thats how long he lived. I was suppose to walk out with him, and instead i left empty handed. It was the most unexpexted thing. I will tell you nothing anyone says help's with the pain. I hated to here god had special plans for him or its ok you will have another. Im sure there will be some that bother you also. It gets easier but always hurt i still have my moments. I lost my son Keaton Blake Melton on December 21st, 2010. I know im only 20 but my husband and i would do anything to have him here today. Im so sorry for your loss. God bless you and your family. If you ever wanna talk i have a facebook and my email is meltonbrittney21@yahoo.com. Im truly sorry about your loss.

Anonymous said...

Laurie, Baby Jack is SOO handsome & adorable... He's beautiful.. When Will was a baby, I thought he was THE cutest baby I had ever seen. I hoped that someday my babies would be as adorable. Jack is even cuter... I so badly wish I could be there to give you a hug and cry with you... I am praying that our Abba Father will hold you so close in His arms today...and give you the strength for the day. I have a good friend who has walked the same path you are on. She said to tell you she is praying for you too. Her name us Lisa and you can read about her through her blog lisa-beehivebuzz.blogspot.com. Much love & prayers for you my friend,
Shellee

Jamie said...

David and Laurie, I am so sorry for the loss of your little guy, Jack. I don't have any great words of wisdom that will help. Just be easy on yourselves. It's been 6 months since my baby boy died. There is a lot of 1 step forward/ 2 steps back days. It's frustrating, but be patient with yourselves. There are days it still doesn't seem real, even now. Please know that I'm praying for all of you. You have a beautiful baby boy! Jamie Reese

The Rogers Family said...

I am so sorry for your loss...we happened to be in Indy visiting IBT the day they announced it in church...thinking of you...hugs across the miles...

Stephani Rogers (Hart...Andy Hart's little sister)

Tory said...

Oh, and I thought that I was done crying! Each picture made me cry for different reasons, but the one with Tambo choked me up the most.

I read on Facebook where you had a lot of people at the celebration for which I am thankful for. It sure sounds like you are coping well and taking an active role in your time of sorrow.

Continuing to pray and sending virtual hugs, Tory