Thursday, June 28, 2012

fifty two Thursdays

hard to believe that this was 52 Thursdays ago

How this little boy changed all of our lives, most definitely for the better.
But how we miss having him here.
How we waited for him to join us
What a beautiful picture for a mother to carry for the rest of her days on earth...one of my oldest sons, crying for our youngest son.
forever imprinted in my mind.

I just really don't even know how to process this day, honestly.
It hit me harder than I imagined it would...I feel like I've hit all of the grief milestones expectantly...

I woke up with David and Will at 4 a.m. to get them out the door to Fort Wayne. I went back to sleep.
I woke up later than I had expected but I needed the rest. ( 9 a.m. )

Levi came in to say good morning and he sat with me. As I woke up a bit more, Ethan came into my room with his customarily cheerful "Good morning, Mom!" and I choked. wept for a few minutes, just completely unable to grasp what this day held 52 Thursdays ago. How gigantic that day was in my life.

The Holy Ground we stepped on that day.
The way the Lord has worked in our lives, shaped us and brought things to "light" in each of our lives.

It's just a lot to soak in.

But I am pain-filled sponge. Rejoicing in the Lord for all of the beautiful things He has shown me. He has shown us.

To You, Lord, Thank you for Jack Oliver Young and for bringing JOY into our lives in ways we could never have fathomed.

Thank You.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so glad that you have the poignant pictures to capture the moment. Knowing that God is surrounding each one of you today.

Tory.

ashley said...

thinking of you all and sending prayers. he is so beautiful!

Tesha said...

Lauri Tears filled my eyes at that picture. I can not imagine all that you are feeling right now. I pray so many loved ones are there to love and comfort you these next two day. I pray the love of our heavenly father is consuming to your heart. You are such a beautiful testimony of strength and such a wonderful mommy. {{{{JACK}}}}

Jamie said...

I just don't have words. Love you

The Rogers Family said...

Thinking of you guys...praying for you a lot...hugs across the miles...

Tashena said...

My heart is aching for you.
Knowing you are living for the Lord and that you know in your heart He has a perfect plan is such comfort. You are a wonderful testimony, an incredible encouragement, and such a beautiful friend.
I will continue to pray for you and your family as you prepare for JOY Celebration. -iamhere-

XO

Anonymous said...

Dear sweet Laurie,
I have been praying for you all day, my Saturday and Sunday..... I trust that though unimaginably difficult, everything for JOY celebration went well. I love you my friend...... Praying through my tear goggles....
Love,
Shellee

Laurie and company said...

love to all of you....I would comment but I may cry.

not that I'm opposed to tears but ya know...

hugs,
L