19 months

always remember.

I had grand plans to blog about a day in the life again...and also great plans for everything to be somehow glorious and bright here. (not that it really isn't...)

But we woke up to warm rain that gradually turned into cold rain and partial snow. blah. that's how my heart feels today. The wind blows coldly and it may turn me to ice.

choose joy.

Union stuff...bah humbug. is it really worth being a part of a union?
prolly not. but I won't go into that....

choose joy.

Kids did well with their tasks, duties and school today. David had a meeting and ran some errands. I saw my sister for like, 5 minutes...Ethan is working with Uncle Tom. Will took our grey van to get some work done (for our trip south but ya know.....who's bragging?? hee hee).  Mel and Will are working on voice projection and standing and singing in front of other people with the two youngers.

choose joy.

What would life have been like today, if Jack had been here...if he hadn't tied a nice li'l perfect knot into his cord, six inches from his button? He would've woken up, happy...plopped into his high chair, napped early afternoon....maybe with a runny nose or a rashy bum. What I'd give to have him here. I have been weepy today...just kinda mad but still....completely trusting that the Lord is in control and HE holds my future...because I live for Him. Everything I do is for Him.

choose joy.

Another thing I'm fighting and wondering about? When I meet someone for the first time, especially a mother, and she asks me how many kids I have...is it dishonoring to not go into "morbid" details about how I have 5 kids in my care and one in the Lord's? or what? I just have not found an easy way to do this yet. If you have any thoughts on this, I'm open to hearing them. I mean, I wear a Jack Oliver 6.30.11 ring, a Jack footprint necklace, sometimes a JOY bracelet with a charm on it....is it obvious?

so glad that He loves me in spite of me. at the end of the day, I will praise Him.

sweet little boy

I. can't. believe. you. left. us.

no.

David and his mini-me. they were so similar.

Good night. Thanks for praying today. all the time. 

I am so thankful.

P.S. Wanna know what I'm listening to RIGHT NOW?? Mel and Will, Levi and Molly singing "Thy Word is a Lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path"....I imagine Jack hovering in the corner, loving their praises.

Praise the Lord.