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| Jack pillow. |
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| a precious wall hanging. |
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| my new journal. How many of you journal regularly? I know I do. I have, almost regularly, since David and I got married. It's fun to read thru the ones from 1994, when my handwriting was still pretty nice. Then kids came along and it went down hill. :) If you don't journal, you should start now. I know my kids will appreciate reading thru them when I'm gone. Just keepin' it real. Good Saturday morning! I'm going to grumble for just a minute. I love fall, autumn, chilly days. and even some clouds now and again. But seven straight days of it? ok, I'm done now. I will choose JOY in the midst of it. I am very frustrated. At this time last year, we had been praying that the Lord would close or open the door on one last baby for our family. He obviously sorta opened it. And then closed it. it is hard to come to grips with a chapter of one's life closing. (I can't believe I'm not taking care of Jack...what I'd give to snuggle him, smell his amazing head and breath...ahhhhhh) This is where I find my identity and have for almost the last 17 years, since Will arrived on the scene. I know, essentially, that being a mother is just ONE of my roles. When you live and breathe babies, kids, tweens, teens for so long, I guess it's not hard to do that. (find identity there, that is) I am still mom to Will Franklin, Ethan James, Melanie Kate, Levi Taylor, Molly Christine, and sweet angel Jack Oliver. Always will be. What will become of me when they all go and get their own lives? I hope they will include me and David. I want to be a loving, Godly grandparent. I wonder if I should go to college? What would I even go to college for? I'm really good at bum wiping, nose wiping, fight breaking up, facebooking, blogging, laundry, scrapbooking but I don't know that there is a degree for those mad "skills" ya know? so that is where I'm at today...in between thoughts of cleaning, sweet Jack, sick kids, what should I do? I think the Lord might be taking me to the "next level". Whatever that may be. Let me leave you with this, as a friend on Facebook so creatively shared with me... Just A Child of the King. Jack's name makes an amazing acronym! Let's not forget that that is our best role and most eternal. God bless you today. |
