Monday, December 30, 2013

I need Thee every hour...

listening to Keith Green Radio on Pandora today. Like his kind of music or not, this guy was ON FIRE for the Lord.
I need that encouragement today. I need Him (Jesus Christ, not Keith) every hour.

Reading the Word, sometimes it doesn't make sense or I wonder how it can apply to my life today...and then He delivers.
Invest the time.

Pray for this little chicky. She is not feeling well today. This is a pic from a few weeks  ago but this is what she's doing right now. So much for getting caught up on math and phonics today, ya know?? (choose joy)

Pulled this card out today. It's been on my dresser since Lori sent it to me over a month ago.
Thank you for remembering our boy, Lori. It means so much to me and I know you know this.
Today, Jack Oliver would've been 2 and a half. How different our lives would be!
I will miss him every day that I walk on earth.
Happy 2.5 birthday, sweet wild haired boy.

This is how sad and lonely  his grave looks right now. Forest Lawn posted a sign back in October that they were actually going to clean up Babyland, so gitchyo stuff cleaned up. I do every fall anyways. It's pretty messy out there, some stuff has been out there as long as Jack's shell has and longer. kinda sad and seemingly forgotten. I know it's not. I know Baby Jack next to our Jack's family comes out and Eniah's momma, and Brycen's momma, probably Michael's too. I never see anyone but you know.

So much for blogging every other day, huh?? Hard to believe that the last weekend of 2013 has come and gone. It was an eventful weekend. Piper spent the night with us on Friday night (love that sweet little girl!!) and Molly went to Aunt Beck's for a slumber party with Nora and Phebe, who will be here for one more week. From what I hear, those 3 got along well. ;)

Saturday! We went ICE SKATING (I didn't), for which I shall blog about later. I need to go get my pix off of FB, along with the Young Christmas pics that I said I'd get last week. From there, Charlie and Duncan came to spend the night and shoot each other's eyeballs out (with air soft guns no less, and yes, they were wearing protection and from what I also hear, boys like to get shot...what?) with Will and Ethan, and occasionally Levi. We have been trying to encourage Levi's sense of boyhood adventure by getting him a bb gun for Christmas. You'll shoot your eye out, kid.

and they did try to.

We took the boys to church with us yesterday and then they came back home with us for the afternoon. to shoot their eye balls out some more.

I worked on NYE hats for a party we are going to tomorrow night. how fun is THAT?? well, I'll try to blog about that later on too.

Since I will be home for the day, maybe later today even.

As I stated above, Jack would be 2.5 today. So weird to think of that. In some ways, it is pretty fresh. In other ways, it seems to have happened in another life or time. or to someone else. He will forever be a part of our family and I will always say his name. I've been dreaming of his birth a lot lately. I think I blogged that the other's sad that my boy didn't make it. he was so perfect, whole, even healthy. Darn that knot.

for real.

I'm so thankful for that time, for the presence of the Lord that I believe came into our home. He's always been with us, never left us but until I actually "wanted", "invited", truly realized my need for HIM, I was grasping at straws....

So yeah, I'd never wish this scenario on anyone. Unless it meant LIFE to them. even then, I'd pray for some other way.     Who knows where my family would've ended up. The presence of the Lord is a very real thing in our lives. Each one of our lives. The peace that only comes from HIM is present in our lives. Look up. don't look at the darkness around you, and lemme tell you....these are some seriously DARK days. (Save me from this present darkness)

Matthew 5:14
Ye are the Light of the World. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

The first chapter of the book of John.
IS AWESOME. read it.

Thank You, Lord Jesus, for coming to earth.
For the tiny heart whose blood would save us
Whose fragile fingers would heal us
Thank You.

Blessed be Your name


ashley said...

love and tears for you. He is faithful.

Laurie and company said...

Yes He is! I'm dying to hear about Henry's baby brother...I emailed you and hope you know you've been at the forefront of my mind and prayers in this delivery month.

Annette said...

Back to reading blogs and so glad I am! Love the transparency I find in this space!
And sometimes even the conviction or thought provoking it brings into my own space :)
Love to you sweet momma!